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medical care in ruraltopia

Medical care in the United States is a joke. Sure, if you have insurance, and money, and live in the “right” place, then maybe it’s okay. “The best in the world” (totally not true). I am about 7 months pregnant. From the moment we started trying, I felt sure this system would probably kill me. … Continue reading

breadwinner’s dilemma

I spoke with a life insurance salesman today. I am going to purchase $600,000 worth of term life coverage. I figure within 10 years I can switch it to universal. If I live that long. I have a distinct fear of dying from this pregnancy. But I realized that if I were one of those … Continue reading


I can feel my pulse in my fingertips. Today my David will call his new school and see what possibility there is for a deferment. Yes, he was accepted into medical school. 1200 miles from our home. Wednesday, we will have our anomaly scan for our second child. He’s 20 weeks, and I am due … Continue reading

little kicks of sadness

I have to say that I did just read one of the saddest stories I have seen in at least a long time. Maybe it is the pregnancy hormones. Maybe it is that my partner is leaving later this week for an interview out of state. Maybe it is that our earth is dying. Or … Continue reading

if I die or. . .

As usual, I woke in the middle of the night. I have had a bad feeling that I would die in labor with this child. It was on my mind the whole time we tried for this child, a sense of foreboding. Maybe it is because I am the breadwinner of our family, maybe it … Continue reading